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My Reversion Story


In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful.
Assalamualaikum to all,
 To some, religion was based on what was sent down to them by their forefathers, for some religion was something that they seek, for others it doesn’t mean anything. Well, to me, religion was what i seek. since the day i had the supreme being consciousness, i knew there is more into it. people might ask you what religion is all about? why is there such thing as religion? well to those who don’t know, religion is the way of live. religion is a guideline about how we are suppose to live, what is right and what is wrong and also to open our eyes about a supreme being above us, more supreme than yourself! i get question where people asked me why is religion so important?why cant we just take the good things in every religion and apply it to ourselves? well, my answer would be, who would tell you which is right or wrong?? in Islam modesty is by covering all of your body except your face and palm but if you in India, Saree is modest, in the west country, wearing a short tee and jeans are modest. Who tell you what is right and wrong?? that is how religion is important in our lives. Religion is our daily guideline.
Well, to me at first it wasn’t the religion that i was finding for but it was the teaching that i was finding for. which is the best teaching about the supreme being consciousness? that was what i was seeking. when i started realising about prayers and talking to God, i started learning how to approach Him. i started learning what was the right way to pray, what do you say during invocation and i was learning and reading and finding! but because i came from a polytheistic religion, we had many invocation method. than i started to realise that i should just invocateone which represents Him, my most favourite one among all. Than when i grew into being close to the Muslim community, i started to learn about being a hijabi. but then i was a teenage and well my friends told me that the reason of them wearing a hijab is to protect something special for one man who are their husband. something that no man sees except their husband. Than i thought to myself that it was great! i mean when i question myself on what do i have for my husband, it is definitely my beauty and it started to make sense there at that time. 
So, what i did is i would tie my hair into a bun, because i know that i definitely cant wear a hijab but this is sort of a hijab for me! but then there is always something missing. than i grew into learning bits and pieces of Islam but something practical to the everyday life. i then got into my teen age and things begun to be different and i had my years of being rebellious and doing things that I’m not supposed to do even being in my own religion because everyone is doing so. than on when i reached my youth age, i got engaged back with the Muslim community and i realised that i never felt more happier and save. from knowing one Muslim to another and another and the ukhwah grew! i saw Islam in them and how they practise it and how beautiful they were as a Muslim. we have conversations on religions and way of life and i started questioning my believe. i went on searching the answers that i was finding for in my own believe.
The first thing that cross into my mind is the Surah Al-Ikhlas in theQuran 

al-Ikhlâs  - The Purity

  In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

  Say: He is Allah, the One and Only!
   Allah, the Eternal, Absolute;
  He begetteth not nor is He begotten.
  And there is none like unto Him.
                          
                                 -  translation by Abdullah Yusuf Ali
That makes perfect sense about who God is right?!
None is like Him and He is the most Supreme! He created us and he can never have the characteristic of a human. He dwells in what He creates but not become as what He creates. HE IS ONE!
So that strikes me and i keep on going looking for answer that at one point of time i gave up cos i never did get the right explanation. Than i started studying books on Islam, the Quran and Hadith and i changed practising it in my life, Alhamdullilah. i changed becoming a better person because of Allah SWT and that is how i found God! At the same time, i never did condemn my own religion or any other out there because one thing i learn as a Muslim, we respect each and other.
 i than took my sha’adah on the 26th of April 2010, after Isha in the mosque and became a Muslim. i remember my close friend who reverted me and she cried doing it but i was more happy and glad that i found it and i don’t want to be in the middle of two believes. She hold my face and told me that it is not going to be easy, a journey as a Muslim. But i told her confidently ” Don’t worry, Allah SWT is there and He gave me this hidaya, He will take care of me inshAllah” and i smiled at her. Alhamdulillah till today i have all my friends with me and they never did mistake my intention of reverting but they have been guiding me all the way. I thank Allah SWT for that. 
Today, i am still learning about Islam, strengthening my deen and being closer to Allah SWT.Being a revert is never easy. My reversion is still a secret till today and i have been praying to live freely as a Muslim. I thank Him as He tested me alot in this one year teaching me how aMuslimah is supposed to be, an Ideal Muslimah. 
Alhamdullilah~
All praises to Allah SWT
Waalaikummusalam warahmatullah ~