THOUGHTS OF A BELIEVER

Surah Ad-Dhuha

In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful.

Assalamualaikum my dear family!

Preety sad Ramadhan is leaving right :(( and i didn’t even do much this year! huhuhuhuhu…not easy staying with the parents #ramblesofarevert but then Alhamdulillah been making use of every opportunity i get to do ibaadah! :D

This year Eid is going to be the same like last year except that i might spend half of the day with my parents :D Funnily, my dad is pretty excited celebrating Eid but not so cool about Islam…weird but that’s the truth! He is a man who is really hard to predict! :p plus i don’t know is i ever have a chance to celebrate with them next year if they know about my reversion :( it’s pretty different right celebrating with friends and celebrating with family…family usually is the best! :D so those of you who have that wonderful opportunity, spend it right yeah! :D

Aaannnddddd….ok now the climax of my story is coming in! heee…. *excited*

Last week i came across this amazing ayah in the Quran (above pic)…and it hit me hard! i was like mashaAllah, its talking to me!!!! i think during Ramadhan i was complaining a lot so He made me stumble upon this ayah…i mean who else do i complain to other than Him right! >.<

and i just looked up and said “sorry my Beloved, i’ve been complaining a lot but i wish i had the opportunity to make this right for my imaan and Deen” and guess what happened the next day……

i got a call from Mercy Mission Malaysia telling me that i got a job there under the creative department! MashaAllah! i was screaming in my heart!! Alhamdulillah i’m soooooo blessed! i’m about to work for my Deen using my passion! won’t you go crazy?! i did! :p and the best part is that i’ll be getting a place to stay at the Madinah Centre which is a new muslim and women shelter! Alhamdulillah! and a ride to work with a sister! SubahanAllah! its like Allah just secured me a place and He planned it beautifully! i can never ask for any other blessing than this!

But nowwwww…..i need to tell my parents about this…i know for sure they are not going to be tooo happy about it but…yah du’a…inshaAllah something good will come up! So my dear family, please make du’a for me so that Allah will ease this for me especially the part about telling my parents and not to forget du’a for the ummah too! i love all of you for the sake of Allah :D

Jazakallhu khair
Waalaikummusalam warahmatullah ~

In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful. 

Assalamualaikum to all,

So how has Ramadhan been so far my dear family? hopefully good yeah! :D

Well, this Ramadhan for me its all about Allah and family. Yes, my parents are aware that i'm fasting but Alhamdulillah no complain so far! Thank you Allah for not letting them complain :D in fact i break my fast together with them and its cute looking at my dad enjoying the dates as much as i do! but my mom is still adamant to the fact that i'm following the Muslim lifestyle. Despite that Alhamdulillah things are going on pretty good just that i never had much time to perform tarawih prayers and its an on off thing due to unavoidable circumstances :(

Apart from that, im kinda missing iftaar and suhoor back in my university days. it is indeed a different feeling being with my Muslim friends and enjoying Ramadhan as much as i could :) Missing all my friends already! now they are probably doing it with their family or their husband :)

Thinking about friends and companionship in my life, i'm actually blessed in a way that Allah has always brought me closer to better people! when im close to someone that takes me away from Him, He pulls me back to seeratul mustaqeem and Alhamdulillah i can never come so far without Him. it is true you know that the purpose we are here on earth is to prepare ourselves for the hereafter and everything that comes to us in this world is a bridge and preparation moving into the hereafter. This applies to relationship too! be our family, friends or even spouse...they define who we really are!

Yesterday i was having my iftaar and taraweh in International Islamic University Malaysia's mosque with my dear beloved sisters Anis, Alyaa and Sharmi! ouh and not to forget teacher Fatin and her cutie little son was there too! MashaAllah it was so beautiful being with them and of course we met sister Hind after the taraweh! MashaAllah that girl is a super woman! :D But the best thing among all is when its time for Isha' and Alyaa hold me and Sharmi and went "come lets stand together so that we'll get into Jannah together"...huuuu i was speechless and the only think i could say that time was Alhamdulillah...thank you for this wonderful gift Rabb! and made du'a for everyone! :D MashaAllah!

See, these are the kind of companions im talking about! those who love you for Allah's sake and you want to be better! such an inspirational ladies MashaAllah!

Ouh, and few months back i was in a halaqa in IIUM which was conducted by Sister Tasneem regarding ticket to Jannah. Most of us might be thinking that the ticket to Jannah is just about fasting, zakat and salat but you know what, there's more to that!

When people talk about Jannah, im always reminded by this hadith...my FAV hadith actually! heeee.....

On the authority of Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased with him), who said that the Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said:
"When Allah created Paradise and Hell-fire, He sent Gabriel to Paradise, saying: 'Look at it and at what I have prepared therein for its inhabitants.'" The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said: "So he came to it and looked at it and at what Allah had prepared therein for its inhabitants." The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said: "So he returned to Him and said: 'By your glory, no one hears of it without entering it.' So He ordered that it be encompassed by forms of hardship, and He said: 'Return to it and look at what I have prepared therein for its inhabitants.'" The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said: "So he returned to it and found that it was encompassed by forms of hardship (1). Then he returned to Him and said: 'By Your glory, I fear that no one will enter it.' He said: 'Go to Hell-fire and look at it and what I have prepared therein for its inhabitants;' and he found that it was in layers, one above the other. Then he returned to Him and said: 'By Your glory, no one who hears of it will enter it.' So He ordered that it be encompassed by lusts. Then He said: 'Return to it.' And he returned to it and said: 'By Your glory, I am frightened that no one will escape from entering it.' - Hadith Qudsi, 38

Such a powerful hadith right! just knocks right into your head! uhuhuhuhu.....
Some disbelievers would actually think and question why Allah is so mean and strict and God is suppose to be compasionate and all but what we fail to realize is that Allah has always His own reason! Well, seeing it logically, we human only appreciate something when its more challenging right? For instance, you want a raise at work so badly and in order to get it, you strive and give your all in achieving it and after that when u get it, you treasure it so much because of all the other things that you gain striving for it! What about Jannah? You want to strive to get in it because of Allah dont you? you want to see your creator! and what else could bring you more happiness than being with Him and with those who love Him?

The more challenging something is, the more you value it and its deserving to have it! Allah makes Jannah more worth it!

On the other hand, half of our daily life are spent with friends..right? be it in college or at workplace, you spend most hours with your friends and Friends are indeed blessings from Allah SWT. But then yet again what kinda friends are you with? are they those who loves you for the sake of Allah? are they those who guide and bring you to Jannah with them? and those who are married, ask this to yourself...is your spouse the one who reminds you of Allah during times of happiness and darkness? or do you do that to your spouse?

The ticket to Jannah is not only what is fard and halal is but its also companionship...those who are closer to you because they are those who actually you spend most of your time with.

Islam talks about types of friends that we encounter throughout our lives. Forgive me if my spelling is wrong...still poor in arabic :p...There are those who are :



AND not to forget before we do all this we gotta change ourselves first! remember Allah will never change our situation unless we change them within ourselves.

So again, ask yourself is your companion the right ones? and ask Allah to guide you to being a better person by giving you the right kind of friends :D

Let's make a whole loads of du'a for ourselves and the Ummah okayh! :D

Waalaikummusalam warahmatullah ~

In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful. 

Assalamualaikum to all,

What is the meaning of being a Muslimah? most importantly why is it that we are a Muslim? not many really did ask themselves this question rather it never did cross their mind! To me i feel a great blessing to be born as a women! and yes, despite the pains we all go through every month and ramble about "why i cant be born as a man?" , i never did grieve on that though! and i could practically scream ALHAMDULILLAH! for the fact that im chosen by Allah to be a Muslim :D



Last week, Alhamdulillah by the blessing of Allah SWT, i managed to attend a wonderful conference here in Malaysia called Being Me : Muslimah Empowered. What's really nice about this conference is that it talks a lot about the contribution of a Muslimah as a humble servant to her Lord and to the development of the ummah! Oh yes, they do have bazaar selling abayas and wonderful hijabs but aside that its more of a self improvement conference. How as a women do you please your Creator, achieving balance between dunya and akhirah, contribution to the ummah and even your own family MashaAllah~

Alhamdulillah Mercy Mission Malaysia did a great job in getting everything up together including the list of  amazing speakers. We had Yasmin Mogahed, Myriam Francois Cherrah, Dr. Fadila Grine, Raya Shokatfard, Dr. Halima Boukerroucha and many more for the main hall and also workshop talks.

What i enjoyed most was the talk by most definitely my favourite speaker of all time, Yasmin Mogahed. Believe it or not, when she went up to the stage i felt like i was in a rock concert...i almost cried! hahahahaha...i kept on saying Alhamdulillah like i dont know how many time in my heart! it was MashaAllah a wonderful blessing!



 I really enjoyed the topic Free from all other masters, Empowering Women by Yasmin Mogahed. i agree to the fact in her speech that we women are made to believe that love and marriage is only the mean to our lives, the ultimate jannah. When we don't get it, we seem to breakdown and lose it all. Some, make us believe that we need to be equal to men! when they cut their hair short, we want to! when man lead a prayer, we think they are closer to Allah SWT and we too wants to lead the congregation. it is almost feeding the desire of man then for our Creator! in  fact we forget why were we even born on earth, what is our purpose of life? was it only to please ourselves and those around us or to please Allah SWT? this specific topic actually opened my eyes to things that i never did look at in a perspective of a Muslimah. I too believed that the point of getting married was basically for my knight shining in armour to save me and bring me to Jannah when it is actually the mercy of Allah SWT. it made me look deep inside me! i shouldn't make Allah SWT as a tool to reach my perfect man but actually the other way around. MashaAllah at that moment i really felt that Allah wanted me to open my eyes and making me a better Muslimah...He is actually answering my du'as :)

Feminism...hmmmm...very very famous topic among women these days right?...Well the topic  Do we need Islamic feminism? by Myriam Francois Cherrah was really interesting where feminism is needed but in the right way, the more positive way and did you know that during the time of Prophet SAW, women actually played important role in shaping the ummah. From the time of Khadijah r.a who was a great supporter of this deen and a great businesswoman to Sumayya who uphold to the deen to Aisha r.a who was the only person to record most of the hadith and the list goes on and on! Even the worlds first university was established by a women SubahanAllah. Funnily none did research on the great Muslimah who reshape the world with this deen and never did bring any extreme feminism or even innovation to the religion. i feel that its time for us to set back things and look at it in a right perspective!






Overall...this is the best birthday present Allah SWT has ever gave myself! ouh i even bought a book on the seerah of Muhammad SAW! that was another exciting event! hikhikhik...always wanted to read the seerah and Alhamdulillah i got it! but i was actually confused in choosing between "When the Moon Split" and "The Sealed Nectar" till a really nice aunty and brother helped me to choose something light for me and i got it discounted Alhamdulillah!! :D :D


Really hoping for many other events like this to come and i really need to make more time for all of this...inshaAllah taala~

p/s: inshaAllah i will be posting more in detail regarding the topics presented by Yasmin Mogahed and Myriam Francois Cherrah in my upcoming posts~


Waalaikummusalam warahmatullah ~

In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful. 

Assalamualaikum to all, 
 
I came across this post in a tumblr page that i follow (http://nubami.tumblr.com/post/1642744536) and it caught my attention. MashaAllah, its written so beautifully and then I started to realize how much Allah S.W.T loves us. Here it goes…

The problems you face will either defeat you or develop you - depending on how you respond to them. Unfortunately, most people fail to see how God wants to use problems for good in their lives. They react foolishly and resent their problems rather than pausing to consider what benefit they might bring.

Here are five ways God wants to use the problems in your life:

1. God uses problems to DIRECT you.
Sometimes God must light a fire under you to get you moving. Problems often point us in a new direction and motivate us to change. Is God trying to get your attention? “Sometimes it takes a painful situation to make us change our ways.”

2. God uses problems to INSPECT you.
People are like tea bags…if you want to know what’s inside them, just drop them into hot ever water! Has God tested your faith with a problem What do problems reveal about
you? “When you have many kinds of troubles, you should be full of joy, because you know that these troubles test your faith, and this will give you patience.”

3. God uses problems to CORRECT you.
Some lessons we learn only through pain and failure. It’s likely that as a child your parents told you not to touch a hot stove…. But you probably learned by being burned. Sometimes we only learn the value of something… health, money, a relationship. .. by losing it. “It was the best thing that could have happened to me, for it taught me to pay attention to your laws.”

4. God uses problems to PROTECT you.
A problem can be a blessing in disguise if it prevents you from being harmed by something more serious. Last year a friend was fired for refusing to do something unethical that his boss had asked him to do. His unemployment was a problem - but it saved him from being convicted and sent to prison a year later when management’s actions were eventually discovered. “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good…

5. God uses problems to PERFECT you.
Problems, when responded to correctly, are character builders. God is far more interested in your character than your comfort. Your relationship to God and your character are the only two things you’re going to take with you into eternity. “We can rejoice when we run into problems…they help us learn to be patient. And patience develops strength of characer in us and helps us trust God more each time we use it until finally our hope and faith are strong and steady.”

MashaAllah, it’s so beautiful rite. Knowing how much Allah S.W.T loves us and wants us to be better is so lovely. After reading it, i knew that my intention on doing everything in my life is for Allah S.W.T  :D

InshaAllah after reading this, i hope my brothers and sisters will be ever ready to accept the test. Remember, our goal…Jannatul Firdouse 

Jazakkallah sister nubami


Waalaikummusalam warahmatullah ~

In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful.


Assalamualaikum to all,

And We have already created man and know what his soul whispers to him, and We are closer to him than [his] jugular vein (50:16)

Waalaikummusalam warahmatullah ~

In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful.

Assalamualaikum to all,

Sahana: Sister, i'm actually in a dillema! why do Islam has so many haram and halal in everything they do in their live? why is it so complicated? and dont they get confuse?

Me: The reason there is haram and halal is like having to differentiate between good things or bad things.For instance,  Islam prohibits alcohol is because scientifically, its not healthy and in the long run there are so many effects. You may say that  alcohol consumed in a less amount wont make any difference but Islam prohibits from the root itself.

Sahana: it is true sister! eliminating from the root itself! but then sister, why my Muslim friend who doesnt want to drink from my water bottle even though i'm vegetarian and she still says its haram,  would rather have her boyfriend back home with her? Isn't that haram too?

Me: ......(speechless) 

So sisters and brothers, any answer for my friends question? its a shame when your Muslim fellows talk about haram and halal but in return, they don't follow it. 


A humble request to my sisters and brothers out there, please please please don't just follow without knowing the reason for doing something. Do make an effort to learn Islam and what it truly is because mashaAllah it's a wonderful religion! you can have so much of facts learning what Islam is. We do have our own flaw, but don't continue doing it. Repent!


Do not commit zina. if man knew what was his limit, he would be the perfect servant of Allah SWT. Shaaitan doesn't only be around us but its within our own nafs. Today we see many people throwing of their babies which results from before marriage sexual conduct. it looks like we went back to the jahilliyah times except this time, we don't kill the baby girls but the baby boys too! love is wonderful but wait for the right one. when you've already have the right one, make du'a so that Allah SWT will bless the relationship with a marriage but at the same time, don't loose yourself. Things can wait. If he/she is meant to be with you, he/she will wait. always put Allah SWT first and ask for His guidance. There is no tawakal if you don't to change things. 


Love you all for the sake of Allah SWT :D

Waalaikummusalam warahmatullah ~

In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful.

Assalamualaikum to all,

I was reading through this article in Facebook yesterday and i just thought to share it with you guys~

When Mu’min enters into Jannah, it will be announced:-

You will remain healthy forever, disease will never come.
…You will remain alive for ever, death will never come.
You will remain in bounties which will never be finished.
Jannat is made with bricks of gold and silver, Its cement is of perfumed musk. Its chips are pearls and Yaqoot.Its sand is Zafraan.

There are eight doors of Jannah. these are eight grades of Jannat :

i) Jannatul Mava
ii) Darul Maqaam
iii) Darul Salaam
iv) Darul Khuld
v) Jannat-ul-Adan
vi) Jannat-ul-Naeem
vii) Jannat-ul-Kasif
viii) Jannat-ul-Firdous


Food of Jannah

They will eat foods and fruits continuously up to 40 years. Every bowl will have a new taste. They will take eructation which will digest the food and there will be perfumed sweating for the digestion of water. There will be no urine and stool.


Garden of Jannat

There will be gardens in Jannah. Every garden will have the length of about 100 years journey. The shadow of these gardens will be very dense.

Their plants will be free of thorns. The size of their leaves will be equal to ears of elephants. Their fruits will be hanging in rows.

Jannatul Mava is in the lowest, Jannat-ul-Adan is the middle and Jannat-ul- Firdous is on the highest. Those who-love each other for the sake of Allah, will get a pillar of Yaqoot, on which there will be seventy thousand (70,000) rooms. These will shine for the residents of Jannah as the sun shines for the residents of Duniya.

There will be rooms in Jannah in such a way that every room will have seventy thousands (70,000) dinning sheets. On every dinning sheet 70,000 types of foods will be served.

For their service 80,000 young boys will be moving around looking like beautiful scattered pearls.
One bunch of dates will be equal to the length of 12 arms. The size of a date will be equal to the big pitcher. These will be whiter than milk, sweater than honey and softer than butter and free from seeds. The stem of these plants will be made up of gold and silver.

There will also be gardens of grapes. The bunches of grapes will be very big. The size of a single grape will be equal to a big pitcher (pot). Someone asked, Ya Rasulullah Sallalahu alaihi wasallam: will it be sufficient for me and my family. It was answered, it will be sufficient for you and your whole tribe.


The Dresses of Jannat

The dress of Jannah will be very beautiful. One will wear 70 dresses at a time.

These will be very fine, delicate, weightless, having different colors.

These dresses will be so fine that the body even the heart will be visible. And the waves of love in the hearts will also be visible. These dresses will never become old, never be dirty and will never tear.

There will be four canals in every Jannah. They are of water, milk, honey and Sharabun Tahoora. There will also be three fountains in Jannah. (i) Kafoor. (ii) Zanjabeel. (iii) Tasneem


Qualities of People of Jannah

In Jannah, height of every Mo’min, will be equal to the height of Hazrat Adam Alaihissalaam = 60 arms (90 feet).

Beauty will be like that of Hazrat Yousuf Alaihissalaam

Age of youth will be like that of Hazrat Esa Alaihissalaam (30-33 years).

Sweetness of voice will be like that of Hazrat Dawud Alaihissalaam.

Tolerance will be like that of Hazrat Yaqoob Alaihissalaam

Patience will be like that of Hazrat Ayyub Alaihissalaam.

Habits will be like that of Sayyadina Muhammad Sallalahu alaihi wasallam.

If a person makes Du’a for Jannah three times, Jannah requests Allah

that O, Allah; make his entry into Jannah. And if a person makes Du’a

for safety from Jahannum three times, the Jahannnum requests Allah that, O, Allah; save him from Jahannum.

Lovely right? let us all set our goal there and achieve it.

Waalaikummusalam warahmatullah ~

In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful.

Assalamualaikum to all,
I came across this post in a tumblr page that i follow (http://nubami.tumblr.com/post/1642744536) and it caught my attention. MashaAllah, its written so beautifully and then I started to realize how much Allah S.W.T loves us. Here it goes…

The problems you face will either defeat you or develop you - depending on how you respond to them. Unfortunately, most people fail to see how God wants to use problems for good in their lives. They react foolishly and resent their problems rather than pausing to consider what benefit they might bring.

Here are five ways God wants to use the problems in your life:

1. God uses problems to DIRECT you.
Sometimes God must light a fire under you to get you moving. Problems often point us in a new direction and motivate us to change. Is God trying to get your attention? “Sometimes it takes a painful situation to make us change our ways.”

2. God uses problems to INSPECT you.
People are like tea bags…if you want to know what’s inside them, just drop them into hot ever water! Has God tested your faith with a problem What do problems reveal about
you? “When you have many kinds of troubles, you should be full of joy, because you know that these troubles test your faith, and this will give you patience.”

3. God uses problems to CORRECT you.
Some lessons we learn only through pain and failure. It’s likely that as a child your parents told you not to touch a hot stove…. But you probably learned by being burned. Sometimes we only learn the value of something… health, money, a relationship. .. by losing it. “It was the best thing that could have happened to me, for it taught me to pay attention to your laws.”

4. God uses problems to PROTECT you.
A problem can be a blessing in disguise if it prevents you from being harmed by something more serious. Last year a friend was fired for refusing to do something unethical that his boss had asked him to do. His unemployment was a problem - but it saved him from being convicted and sent to prison a year later when management’s actions were eventually discovered. “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good…

5. God uses problems to PERFECT you.
Problems, when responded to correctly, are character builders. God is far more interested in your character than your comfort. Your relationship to God and your character are the only two things you’re going to take with you into eternity. “We can rejoice when we run into problems…they help us learn to be patient. And patience develops strength of characer in us and helps us trust God more each time we use it until finally our hope and faith are strong and steady.”

MashaAllah, it’s so beautiful rite. Knowing how much Allah S.W.T loves us and wants us to be better is so lovely. After reading it, i knew that my intention on doing everything in my life is for Allah S.W.T :D

InshaAllah after reading this, i hope my brothers and sisters will be ever ready to accept the test. Remember, our goal…Jannatul Firdouse

Jazakkallah sister nubami

Waalaikummusalam warahmatullah ~